Midnight Sons - If only tears could bring you back to me.

If my tears could bring you back to me...

Old song.

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How will I start
Tomorrow without you here
Who's heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear

Is it too late
Are you too far gone to stay
This one's forever
Should never have to go away

What will I do
You know I'm only half without you
How will I make it through

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I'd cry you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Wings of emotion
Will carry you, I know they can

Just light will guide you
And your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north

Look in my eyes
And you will see a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I hold you close
And shout the words I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last dance
There's nothing that I would not give and more

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

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* When my actions are unable to be fully carried out, I can only rely on words to carry my message *

YES AHAHAHA.
I close the curtains now that my ploy worked.
I throw my mask and end my facade.

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Right, now I need SOMEBODY to tell him that I posted this.

btw, Get well soon, Daniel.

VERY LONG ESSAY ( May take a few days for completion )

Being taken for granted can be a compliment. It means that you've become a comfortable, trusted element in another person's life.

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I'll leave you to find out the topic for the upcoming essay. Go figure.

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Chastity - Purity - Lust

Abstaining from sexual conduct according to one's state in life. Courage and boldness. Embracing of moral wholesomeness and achieving purity of thought through education and betterment.

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Temperance - Self Control - Gluttony

Constant mindfulness of others and one's surroundings; practicing self-control, abstention, and moderation.

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Charity - Generosity - Greed

Willingness to give. A nobility of thought or actions.

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Diligence - Persistence, Effort - Sloth

A zealous and careful nature in one's actions and work. Decisive work ethic. Budgeting one's time; monitoring one's own activities to guard against laziness.(The Vice "Acedia" is more commonly known as "Sloth")

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Patience - Peace - Wrath

Forbearance and endurance through moderation. Resolving conflicts peacefully, as opposed to resorting to violence. The ability to forgive; to show mercy to sinners.

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Kindness - Satisfaction - Envy

Charity, compassion, friendship and empathy without prejudice and for its own sake.

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Humility - Modesty - Pride

Modest behavior, selflessness, and the giving of respect. Giving credit where credit is due; not unfairly glorifying one's own self.

THE EIGHT VIRTUE...

Justice - Fairness - Corruption

Honesty, and the giving of righteousness. Being fair or telling the truth. Doing what is right and not what is wrong. It is the light of truth that conquers the dark of the wrong.

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Lust - Chastity Asmodeus

Gluttony - Temperance Beezelbub

Greed - Charity Mammon

Sloth - Diligence Belphagor

Wrath - Patience Satan/Amon

Envy - Kindness Leviathan

Pride - Humility LUCIFER

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Gene.

Game review : Monster Hunter 2g/United

This post is dedicated to Daniel, who taught me that I don't have to be the king to rule the world.

My rating : 8.5/10

Story :

Monster Hunter places the player in the role of an up-and-coming hunter who must accomplish various quests to achieve glory. Armors, weapons, and other items are created from the remains of slain monsters by carving off their horns, scales and bones. Monster Hunter plays in a similar fashion to Phantasy Star Online allowing the player to team up with up to three other hunters online to take down stronger monsters.

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Review :

Alright, this game contributes to one of the reasons why you should get a PSP. If you're looking for a game that'll REALLY stay in your PSP, this is the game for you. Chances are you won't be clearing the game pretty soon. ( no cheating ! tsk tsk, downloading savedata spoils the fun ) It took me MONTHS to clear the game.

If you're looking for a game to play while your teacher isn't looking, then this IS NOT THE GAME FOR YOU. This game requires pure concentration - lose it and you'll die in the game.

The game system is pretty..well, limited. You go on quests, kill monsters, get their loot and craft weapons and the cycle repeats. 90% of the time in game you'll be just finding items to upgrade your weapons/armors ( that includes questing, mining, farming, training school, etc ) and the other 10% you'll be either in the kitchen thinking of what to eat or combining items.

As for majority of the game, you'll be partaking in quests. There are various kinds of quests - namely Slaying bosses, gathering quests and slaying minions. For most of the slaying bosses and minions quest, you get 45 minutes. When you start out ( 1 or 2 stars ), 45mins seems to be alot of time when you can actually complete it within 5mins but when you advance ( 5 or 6 stars ), that 45mins WILL NOT BE ENOUGH ( unless you hunt as a team ).

Now, moving on, after completing quests, you get the monster's loots and items. You NEED them in order to make stronger weapons and armors. Now when I wrote that I needed MONTHS to clear the game, I certainly was not kidding. In order to count completion, apart from clearing ALL quests, you'll need to craft ALL weapons and upgrade your farm to the max. With +- 6/7 weapon elements and armors to choose from and weapons ranging from Great sword to Heavy Bowguns ( pardon me for my poor memory or my laziness to check rather ) which totals to 11 different kinds of weapon to choose from.

Great swords, Long swords, Sword and shields, Dual swords ( I like this best ), Lance, Gunlance, Hammer, Hunting Horn, Bow, Heavy bowgun and Light bowgun.

Other than that, anything I missed out are just the bits and pisces of the game I never really bothered to find ( like fishing, mining, upgrading your farm etc. )

Up till this part of the review, I'd give it a 6/10. What boosts it to 8.5/10 would be...

WiFi playing.

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WiFi playing with friends really took the game to a whole new level. You do the same shit - killing monsters, gathering items but now, WITH FRIENDS ( or enemies ) !

The maximum amount of friends who can play with you would be 4. Imagine that - the monster would be trapped in a deadlock. Then again, I'm sure that the monster does improve it's abilities when there are more people ( x4 the health, maybe? )

Once you and your friend try out the WiFi and quest together, you'll always keep asking for more. With around 50+ ( more or less ) dragons/wyverns and other shits to kill, you'll never find yourself bored with this game.

Afterall...this IS the most popular game for PSP.

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Signing off , gene.

Volume 7 - Sneak peak !

I don't usually post my novel online but it's SPECIAL for this chapter only.

Chapter 63 - The change of hearts.

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He continued on the blood-stained path. The Battle Of 7 was drawing closer. Agony and misery is what he do not need. With his remaining band, he continued to lead...time was limited though. He held on to his hope...he held no grudge towards the few who turned tail...as they are...his Guardians...

Lithium ( following the code names, to protect identity ) knew he could not last long. Just one week back, Lead and Sulfur seemed to be one of the trusted in his band...and just overnight, Lead stabbed Lithium and ran off from the band, planning his next move.

Lithium understood that however much Lead hated him due to THAT incident, he could not bring himself to hate him.

As for the others, Lithium knew that his leadership skills was deteriorating. Sulfur took up the fight for leadership and when refused, he left with Lead. It is unknown about where they are now...except for the fact that Lithium knew this would not be the end.

Seeing his wound, Lithium wonders if the others would follow suit against him...

After all, the Festival will be held a few days from now and Lithium knew that only hostility and tension will rise between them. Sulfur may not be pleased to see Lithium there...

As the sun rose, Lithium continued the path...alone. Taking any more damage and seeing this tearing his band apart would lead to Lithium's end.

What he needs now is not this misery...as the Battle Of 7 draws near.

Death Note

Ah, who could forget one of the greatest movie ( or manga ) ever made.

I found my Death Note while cleaning up my room today ! ( I know ! It has been like EONS since I tidied my room )

Flipping through the pages of my Death Note, one thing came to my mind...

Why are they not dead yet? :O

You never know~ your name...might just be in there.

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Then again, maybe that $10 investment phailed.

THERE I AM ( Cosfest 09 )

http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=63708

Im somewhere inside here and I must admit I look pretty retarded though...

IM GOING AS ZERO NEXT TIME !! RAWRS !! ( Picture 1 looks way better..forgot my frinch in Picture 2 )

Oscar winner BEST FOREIGN LANGUAGE FILM

DEPARTURES ( you can watch it at www.mysoju.com )

Daigo Kobayashi (Masahiro Motoki) is a devoted cellist in an orchestra that has just been dissolved and now finds him without a job. Daigo decides to move back to his old hometown with his wife to look for work and start over. He answers a classified ad entitled “Departures” thinking it is an advertisement for a travel agency only to discover that the job is actually for a “Nokanshi” or “encoffiner”, a funeral professional who prepares deceased bodies for burial and entry into the next life. While his wife and others despise the job, Daigo takes a certain pride in his work and begins to perfect the art of “Nokanshi,” acting as a gentle gatekeeper between life and death, between the departed and the family of the departed. The film follows his profound and sometimes comical journey with death as he uncovers the wonder, joy and meaning of life and living.

At first, Daigo’s wife and others refuse to accept Daigo’s disgusting profession. After they need an encoffinment service, they finally give their respect and understanding to Daigo. The job is so meaningful but not everybody have the will to do it. I do respect Daigo’s career as an encoffiner.

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Rating : 10/10


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If you had read my show reviews then you will like this show. This show portrays ( almost ) the same meaning as Shigeshoshi ( The Embalmer ) except that now we see the life of an Encoffiner but all in the same industry.

This show is very touching. Advisable to watch with your family or a girlfriend ( and watch as her tears drop ) XD.

Death is NOT a very simple topic to chat about and majority of us would prefer to shun the topic of Death itself.

This show captures the positive moments after death and...don't you want to see what happens when YOU die?

Very touching indeed with a fair share of comedy.

Panic! At The Disco - Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off

Lyrics :

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

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From : http://www.plyrics.com/lyrics/panicatthedisco/lyingisthemostfunagirlcanhavewithouttakingherclothesoff.html

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" I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me "

My ego has just risen OVER 9000 !

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Cosfest '09 Day 1

Enjoy.

Arashi - Ashita no Kioku

The Quiz Show Season 2 theme

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Ano hi kimi to mite ita
yuuyake eien ni shitakute
kioku no naka tewo nobashite
nanndomo fure youto suru keredo

onaji keshiki to kimochimo
nidoto towa tori morosenai kara
kagayaii tewa kako no yume wo
furi kaette shimanndaro

mattsara na mirai ni sae
kanashimi ga kobore dashite
kokoro wo niji maseru kara daremoga
tachi tomari miushi natte shimauyo

meguri muguru kisetse no
tochuu de nani irono
ashita wo egaki masuka
tsuyoku tsuyoku shinnji aeta nara
nani iro no mirai ga matte imasaka

taisetsu na omoide sae itsukawa iro awasete kurukara
gennjitsu kara me wo sorashite
yume to yu kotoba ni nigeta

kizutsuki kowareta ashita ga
suchi datta to shitemo
te wo furete wa naikara nanndomo hajime kara yari naoshite ikeba ii

meguri meguru jidai no tochuu de
nann nin wo suki ni
nareru no darou
fukaku fukaku sasae aeta nara kimi no nani ga deki runn no darou

kasane atta kokoro no oku ni
yorokobi to kanashimi nukumori to kurushimi
boku raga meguri ai wakachi atta hibi wa

tashikani kono muneni yaki tsuite iru kara
Ah Ah..

meguri muguru kisetse no
tochuu de nani irono
ashita wo egaki masuka
tsuyoku tsuyoku shinnji aeta nara
nani iro no mirai ga matte imasaka


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Translation :

The sunset we saw together
I wanted to make that sunset last forever

The same feelings i have
I will never be able to take it back
i keep on thinking about the past

The future makes me sad
I just loose myself standing there

As the seasons go by
i see tomorrow
As i strongly believe
If we met, what color future would we have?

When i remember important memories we had together
I keep running of to the dream

hurt, broken, As yesterday pass
I should have start over from the beginning

As years go by
i think im gonna be able to like someone again
Deeper, Deeper, As we support each other
what can i do for you?

the feelings for you that i kept on stacking
my heart has happiness, sadness, warmth and pain
the day we got together

i still have that feeling burned in my heart
Ah Ah...

As the seasons go by
I see tomorrow
As i strongly believe
If we met, what color future would we have?

Translation taken from :
ArashiForDreamz

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What am I doing :O

Off to COSFEST 2009 !

- signing off. I'll * try * to take plenty of pictures ! ( no quality guaranteed though, I suck at taking pictures )

Inspiration LOST.....?

That flickering light I once shielded with all my might...it vanished...?


Who knows?

Cosfest [ 11th July 09 ]

Being alone sure must be lonely...OR NOT...or so... !

I planned for this but it did not went the way I wanted.
My life is currently screwed and my brain is officially hay-wired.
I can't find whats exactly wrong.

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Anyway, I can't explain why but my brain does not function properly right now, so don't blame me if this post is all jimbly-jumbly ( wtfloldoesthiswordevenexist ).

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So it looks like participation has been bleak ( as always ) but I'm not going to let this chance slip by.

Alone I shall go to the event as like my usual routine.
Oh how sorrowful must it have been but it is not like I have never done it before.

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11th July - A very special COSPLAY day.

http://www.cosfest.com/Cosfest.htm - Cosfest 11th - 12th July
http://www.daiconnews.com/index.php - Daicon 11th July ( but it's in Msia, so... )

and apparently ;


As part of the Singapore Youth Olympic Games (YOG) CAN! festival
(July - Sep '09: Digital Media), a cosplay competition will be held.

This Event is co-organised by Nanyang Polytechic School of Interactive Digital Media.


THE EVENT
Singapore Youth Olympic Games (YOG) CAN! festival
Date: 11 July
Time: 1pm - 5pm
Venue: Iluma @ Bugis

http://www.singapore2010.sg/whyohgee/can/aboutcan

THE COSPLAY COMPETITON SEGMENT

• The members of the public (participants) collect a cosplayer card at the registration counter.
• The cosplayer card has 10 empty slots. The participant is required to collect 10 cosplay stamps from 10 different cosplayers to redeem a gift.
• The participant can also vote for their most favorite cosplayer by ticking on the cosplayer stamp.
• Each cosplayer will be given a unique stamp to chop on the cosplay card.
• The cosplayers move around the venue and interact with the participants. It is important to give a good experience to the participants so that they will vote for the cosplayer.
• The most popular cospayer is the one which has the most participants vote.

The competition time is 3.30-5.30pm.

Transportation from Downtown East to the Iluma(before the competition 3pm gather) and back to Downtown East(6pm earliest) will be provided for the participants. [in view of Cosfest 09 being on the same day]

CCA points for NYP students and Media coverage (YOG publication) are other incentives to look forward to.

All participants will receive goodie bags and certificates of participation for the Singapore Youth Olympic Games (YOG) CAN! festival.

The "Most Popular Cosplayer" award for this event will be given a trophy and $100 worth of shopping vouchers.

http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?p=5685324

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Is there even a relation towards YOG and Cosplay...?

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So eliminating Daicon ( cuz it's in Msia ) - I'm left with Iluma and Downtown east.

BUT the answer is clear though - I'm with Downtown east.

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What's this? Think positive, Eugene Goh !

This won't be the last cosplay event, right? I mean there's still AFA , EOY and CosCon along with other cosplay events. I'm sure you'll have plenty of other chance to get them to come with you !

...hopefully so.

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I...don't know what to do anymore...it's...all ŠČЯΣẅЭD ÛῬ( apparently I can't find a good sign for D...maybe it's because EVERYTHING I DO IS WRONG =s...momentarily of course )

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SEE THAT Û ABOVE? IF YOU SEE IT CLEARLY, THEN THE SIGN ON TOP OF THE " U " IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN =<

Blast from the past 2

It's so sad =(

Kinda relates to my story, no?

Shall I be the lonely scientist while SHE be the robot...? ( I mean look at that straight face ! )

Ah, all is but virtual act.
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What does that existence means to you...?

Surely it is lonely to be by oneself.

10th July - The first miracle was that you were born.
11th July - The second miracle was the time we spent together.
12th July - The third miracle...not yet...

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Let's see how long does it take for me to post the 3rd miracle, aye?

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SURELY IT IS LONELY TO BE BY ONESELF...//**

Blast from the past

" Although it’s easy to say “I love you”,
when you appear in front of me,
my personality arises and becomes my hindrance. "

" I hope you can understand my feelings.
That’s why I always
give you that side glance
with my greatest courage and love. "

" ...I finally got to meet you and be aware of you,
but I’m unskillful in love…
I’ve forgotten my scars of love,
so suddenly, the pain overflows.
Someday, the real me will say “I Love You”,
I must say it…but today I’ve become too weak {to do it}. "

" If I say I love you, I’ll be at ease,
although I understand that truth,
If I say it, it seems you’ll distance yourself… "

" In what way should I think about it?
Right now, your distance to me
is merely that of friends… "

" It may be a beautiful thing but,
I just don’t want to keep getting hurt.
Why did I just warned myself?
I’m just running away right? "

" This time, if I’m to be hurt again, I’m sure
I won’t be able to love anyone else again…
This sound leading and seemingly breaking my heart
lies under my memories…I’m sure.
I put away and forgot about that day… "


" I finally got to meet you and be aware of you,
but I’m unskillful in love…
Purposely hiding my weakness,
even if I put up a front, I’m sure
one day the real me will say “I Love You” and
properly convey these feelings to you.

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Contradiction.

Signing off~

Dream world VS Real world [ Girls ver ]

DREAM WORLD: A guy will love me for who I am.
REAL WORLD: I have to modify my character, within reason, to appeal to a guy.

DREAM WORLD: He must change for me.
REAL WORLD: We both must change for each other.

DREAM WORLD: A guy will have to prove himself worthy for me.
REAL WORLD: I must prove I'm worthy for him.

DREAM WORLD: He will find me.
REAL WORLD: I need to find him.

DREAM WORLD: Guys should stop being so childish, perverted and shallow.
REAL WORLD: Guys will always be guys.

DREAM WORLD: I want complete equality in my relationship.
REAL WORLD: Equality do not exist...never has and never will.

DREAM WORLD: Rejection is just horrible and something to avoid at all cost.
REAL WORLD: If I don't get rejected much, it means I haven't taken enough risk.

DREAM WORLD: I can have everything...family, friends, education, marriage, money, career...EVERYTHING!
REAL WORLD: I cannot have everything and must select the lesser of two evils.

DREAM WORLD: If it's meant to be, it's meant to be
REAL WORLD: Most things happen because of conscious effort.

DREAM WORLD: He pursues me because he thinks I'm the perfect girl.
REAL WORLD: He pursues me because I'm one of 35 girls he's interested at this time.

DREAM WORLD: Love is always romantic with a happy ending.
REAL WORLD: Love is mostly crap with some fleeting moments of happiness.

DREAM WORLD: I can become fat/ugly and he'll still love me.
REAL WORLD: I have to maintain my physical condition.

DREAM WORLD: Love is random, like a cupid shooting arrows blindly.
REAL WORLD: Love occurs when I take an initiative.

DREAM WORLD: If I complain about gender unfairness, people will listen and care.
REAL WORLD: If I complain about gender unfairness, it will mostly do no good.

DREAM WORLD: I want nothing but the perfect guy. I deserve it!
REAL WORLD: I must compromise some standards as perfect people do not exist.

DREAM WORLD: If I suffer from injustice and disrespect, I must always stand and fight.
REAL WORLD: Even if I suffer from injustice and disrespect, some things just aren't worth fighting for.

DREAM WORLD: What is right and fair will always prevail.
REAL WORLD: Life is never fair.

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Signing off - Gene