Today, I gained $50 Singapore Dollars (SGD)for walking 1 point to another, touch a wall and walk back. Sounds crazy? Believe it.
--
So I had to do a survey today and I brought my Zero cosplay suit along to class. Afraid that the cape's collar MIGHT crease, I took it out to check on it.
Then I thought, what the heck, why don't just don the whole suit and show it to the rest of the class, and I did.
The class was stunned in total awe when they saw me in my cosplay suit. At first it was just photo-taking, then some guy called out...: " I BET YOU $2 TO GO OUT OF THE CLASS, WALK TO THE WATER COOLER, TOUCH THE WALL AND COME BACK. "
Of course, it did NOT stop there. The bet increased to $10 as they took out their cash. I took the bet, of course. After all, I've experienced MUCH worse humiliation (
going to last year's Anime Fest. Asia wearing my Hei's suit. All eyes were on me when I was boarding the MRT ! ).
Walking 50meters wearing my cosplay suit was NOT a difficult thing to do, yet the difficult thing is that I had to walk past HER class. That's when Dan said : " Are you going to make a fool out of yourself by doing that? Furthermore, in front of her? "
My answer was clear. It was NOT the money that made me do it, but the experience. I thought of it of more like a simple catwalk for them to see my new suit. I was NOT provoking envy out of others.
--
Anyway, I've been to plenty of Cosplay events ( AFA, Cosfest, etc ) and I have took plenty of pictures with my suit on - posing and whatever. If they are willing to take pictures of me, and publicize my pictures over their newsletter, that means that I am NOT a fool and I am NOT ugly. I am good enough to be printed on a newsletter - and that's good enough for me.
--
Oh, and I came across this quote today. How... perfect.
" It takes a man to be brave
But it takes a real man to do something they know is insane "
True? I'll leave you to do the judgment.
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Signing off, Gene.
( I don't know should I be grateful or resentful for being a Aquarius-Pisces cusp.. )
Friday, February 27, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Joke...
After numerous rounds of 'We don't even know if Osama bin Laden is still alive',
Osama himself decided to send George Bush a letter in his own hand witing to let
him know he was still in the game.
Bush opened the letter and it contained a single line of coded message:
370H-SSV-0773H
Bush was baffled, so he e-mailed it to Condoleezza Rice. Condi and her
aides had not a clue either, so they sent it to the FBI.
No one could solve it at the FBI so it went to the CIA, and then to MI6.
Eventually they asked the Mossad (Israeli intelligence) for help.
Within a minute Mossad emailed the White House with this reply:
'Tell the President he's holding the note upside down'
==
http://i176.photobucket.com/albums/w180/MisteRidhwan/2001742806065231190_rs.jpg
Epic win.
Osama himself decided to send George Bush a letter in his own hand witing to let
him know he was still in the game.
Bush opened the letter and it contained a single line of coded message:
370H-SSV-0773H
Bush was baffled, so he e-mailed it to Condoleezza Rice. Condi and her
aides had not a clue either, so they sent it to the FBI.
No one could solve it at the FBI so it went to the CIA, and then to MI6.
Eventually they asked the Mossad (Israeli intelligence) for help.
Within a minute Mossad emailed the White House with this reply:
'Tell the President he's holding the note upside down'
==
http://i176.photobucket.com/albums/w180/MisteRidhwan/2001742806065231190_rs.jpg
Epic win.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Thanks to those who celebrated my bday with me..
Original list
HER - For just being there.
Keith - For a free drink
C.Teng - For some metal heart shape wire thingy
Uncle Lee ( cosplay supplier ) - For giving me a HUGE discount on my cosplay suit, a neat poster and the member card.
3rd aunt - For hosting a buffet dinner at some posh restaurant in due of striking 10k SGD in the recent 4D draw.
Mr Nathan - For ur free A4 papers
HER sister - For letting me find the courage to talk to ( and curbing my shyness )
My sister - For getting me a b'day present which I have not gotten from her YET.
My parents - For hosting a small dinner for me somewhere in the town area.
--
MOST recent list
Weide - For ur tissue paper :x
1st aunt - For ur hongbao
2nd aunt - For ur hongbao
2nd uncle - For ur hongbao
5th aunt - For the birthday cake
My cousins - who were there @ the buffet just now
Hansel and Sherman - For ur fames
Daniel - For giving me an invaluable piece of advice and ur birthday gift.
Wee Shang - For being there for me and ur birthday gift.
My GUILD - For ur well wishes and for being there for me all these time ( 3rd year with them )
My CLASS - For supporting me in my studies.
My ( DotA ) CLAN - For supporting me and showing me the power of teamwork.
last but not least
All those whom I have met but not listed here. Thank you for existing in my life and I am really glad that I have met you guys. Even the slightest amount kindness you provided me ( even if it's just a simple 'Thanks' ) will be noted. Please do NOT despair if your name is NOT listed in here. Remember that I have NOT forgotten you, but it's just that I have to go soon :x
Anyway, that's about all for now.
Signing off, Gene. This is a birthday which I will remember...
but it could be better...with...
H
E
R
...
HER - For just being there.
Keith - For a free drink
C.Teng - For some metal heart shape wire thingy
Uncle Lee ( cosplay supplier ) - For giving me a HUGE discount on my cosplay suit, a neat poster and the member card.
3rd aunt - For hosting a buffet dinner at some posh restaurant in due of striking 10k SGD in the recent 4D draw.
Mr Nathan - For ur free A4 papers
HER sister - For letting me find the courage to talk to ( and curbing my shyness )
My sister - For getting me a b'day present which I have not gotten from her YET.
My parents - For hosting a small dinner for me somewhere in the town area.
--
MOST recent list
Weide - For ur tissue paper :x
1st aunt - For ur hongbao
2nd aunt - For ur hongbao
2nd uncle - For ur hongbao
5th aunt - For the birthday cake
My cousins - who were there @ the buffet just now
Hansel and Sherman - For ur fames
Daniel - For giving me an invaluable piece of advice and ur birthday gift.
Wee Shang - For being there for me and ur birthday gift.
My GUILD - For ur well wishes and for being there for me all these time ( 3rd year with them )
My CLASS - For supporting me in my studies.
My ( DotA ) CLAN - For supporting me and showing me the power of teamwork.
last but not least
All those whom I have met but not listed here. Thank you for existing in my life and I am really glad that I have met you guys. Even the slightest amount kindness you provided me ( even if it's just a simple 'Thanks' ) will be noted. Please do NOT despair if your name is NOT listed in here. Remember that I have NOT forgotten you, but it's just that I have to go soon :x
Anyway, that's about all for now.
Signing off, Gene. This is a birthday which I will remember...
but it could be better...with...
H
E
R
...
Friday, February 20, 2009
Transfering data..
List of Animes I watched
1) The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi
2) Code Geass
3) Code Geass R2
4) Jigoku Shoujo
5) Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori
6) Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae
7) Clannad
8) Clannad Afterstory
9) Death Note
10) Bleach ( ongoing )
11) Naruto ( ongoing )
12) One Piece ( ongoing )
13) Yorakuza Quarted
14) Casshern Sins
15) Itazura Na Kiss
16) Kodomo No Jikan
17) Get Backers
18) Shakugan No Shana
19) Ikkitousen
20) Ikkitousen Dragon Destiny
21) Dokuro-Chan
22) Dokuro-Chan season 2
23) Kamen no Maid guy
24) Shigofumi
25) To Aru Majutsu no Index
26) Darker Than Black
27) Yu-Gi-Oh
28) Yu-Gi-Oh GX
29) Toradora
30) Skip Beat
1) The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi
2) Code Geass
3) Code Geass R2
4) Jigoku Shoujo
5) Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori
6) Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae
7) Clannad
8) Clannad Afterstory
9) Death Note
10) Bleach ( ongoing )
11) Naruto ( ongoing )
12) One Piece ( ongoing )
13) Yorakuza Quarted
14) Casshern Sins
15) Itazura Na Kiss
16) Kodomo No Jikan
17) Get Backers
18) Shakugan No Shana
19) Ikkitousen
20) Ikkitousen Dragon Destiny
21) Dokuro-Chan
22) Dokuro-Chan season 2
23) Kamen no Maid guy
24) Shigofumi
25) To Aru Majutsu no Index
26) Darker Than Black
27) Yu-Gi-Oh
28) Yu-Gi-Oh GX
29) Toradora
30) Skip Beat
LOTS of update
Firstly, I would like to give thanks to ur birthday presents to me...
HER - For just being there.
Keith - For a free drink
C.Teng - For some metal heart shape wire thingy
Uncle Lee ( cosplay supplier ) - For giving me a HUGE discount on my cosplay suit, a neat poster and the member card.
3rd aunt - For hosting a buffet dinner at some posh restaurant in due of striking 10k SGD in the recent 4D draw.
Mr Nathan - For ur free A4 papers
HER sister - For letting me find the courage to talk to ( and curbing my shyness )
My sister - For getting me a b'day present which I have not gotten from her YET.
My parents - For hosting a small dinner for me somewhere in the town area.
And many others whom I MAY have forgotten. The day's still early, so I may receive more later on. Even the smallest gift WILL be listed ( if I can remember, that is )
--
MY LELOUCH LAMPEROUGE SUIT IS UP. It's WAY better than I had expected. Now all's that left is a scarf AND a helmet. I still lack a mask for my Hei's cosplay though.
--
Transfering some data over via the blog...
My ( YES MINE, EUGENE GOH ) collection of QUOTES over the period of 5 years or so.
Please bear with it.
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For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic. Normal means lack of imagination, lack of creativity.
Courage is the ladder on which all the other virtues mount.
First Impressions aren't always important, its how you end it the last impression.
the only way to get rid of a bad memory is to replace it with a good one, you can't forget no matter how hard you try, so now live and replace.
If you lose something important to move on and gain something else, it isn't a sacrifice, it's a trade.
Its the simple things that we often seem to miss... its not that we don't give a shit its just that we don't find the time, we over analyze things and leave the simple things behind.
Its like the story of the little wooden boy who wanted to live the life that every child should enjoy. I've heard it once or twice before. The world is yours for you to explore.
When you love someone you got to let them go. So I'm gonna smile cause I wanna make you happy, laugh so you can't see me cry. I'm gonna let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I'm gonna smile.
When I'm holding a sword to protect you, I can't embrace you. When I'm embracing you, I can't protect you.
When each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.
Give a cookie, make a friend.
As a well spent day brings happy sleep, so a life well spent brings happy death.
Your misery is my pleasure, I serve to make you happy. Should I ever fail, my existance on Earth is meaningless.
If you can call your friend a retard, you are a good friend. If you can act like a retard with your friend, you guys are best friends.
There are no such things as genuinely good intentions. The only thing 'good' about them is the selfish benefit the action brings the intender.
When there's good, there's evil. There's no point of being good if there's no evil, and vice versa.
Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.
Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.
If you think life sucks and then you die, in the end it still sucks.
Life is eternal. Love is immortal.
Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die.
Learn from others mistakes,you don't live long enough to make them all yourself
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind.
Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach.
True stability results when presumed order and presumed disorder are balanced. A truly stable system expects the unexpected, is prepared to be disrupted, waits to be transformed.
There is no such thing as a weird human being, It's just that some people require more understanding than others
If all else fails, reformat. It's all about time.
Live as if you were living already for the second time and as if you had acted the first time as wrongly as you are about to act now.
The moment you look in the mirror and like what you see, you've already lost the war.
Life's simple, you make choices and you don't look back.
Showing off is the fool's idea of glory.
Don't let it end like this, tell him I said something.
Do not fear death. Death is always at your side. When you show fear, it will spring at you faster than light. If you do not show fear, it will only gently look over you...
This whole world exist just for cornering you, you have to find your way out.
The whole idea of war is not for you to die for your country, but to make the other bastard die for his!
The power of imagination is the ability to create your own future, and the power to create your own flow of time.
Righteousness is what has developed between faith and revenge.
The one problem is that you can’t have a perfect society without perfect people.
Someone has to fight, otherwise this war will never end.
Answer me. Why is killing human beings considered wrong?
I never think of the future - it comes soon enough.
The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources.
The hater and the hatred are two in one. When one dies, the other will follow suit soon.
All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand.
Love me when I need it least, cause that's when I need it most.
We are never intelligent beings. Halfway in our path, we would have to stop, take a break and carry on.
Sacarsm may be the lowest form of wit, but it may be the best way to convey the message across.
If we couldn't laugh, we would all go insane.
Laughter is a free medicine.
Humour is exellent to make one feel comfortable.
The more things a man is ashamed of, the more respectable he is.
Get all the fools on your side and you can be elected to anything.
Everyone is entitled to be stupid, but some abuse the privilege.
Do you see your bottle half full or half empty?
I am not perfect. I am not worthy, but most of all, I am not ashamed.
It's difficult to tell which one your giving : Lame or funny?
Wars take many lives away. Humans never forget the grief, but they also never stop the fighting. Streams of blood and tears are only an ornament for their destructive ritual
If you let the fly live, the spider is going to die. You can't save both without one suffering.
If possible, die with a smile.
Don’t use other people as an excuse to die.
Be nice to people who you meet on your way up, cause you will need them on your way down.
You can choose : To use friends as puppets or to use friends as your support. Be warned, I shall not be responsible if you lose them.
It's either you backstab him or the other way round. The one who strikes first always gets an advantage. However, who gets the last laugh is always a mystery.
Yes, there is no Fate for us, only those who are swallowed by ignorance and fear and miss a step
fall into the rapid river called Fate.
I just keep practicing to say goodbye to you.
Those who do not know what love is liken it to beauty. Those who claim to know what love is
liken it to ugliness.
Always have a backup plan, you don't know when or what will come.
Do not envy a sinner; you don't know what disaster awaits him.
We can learn much from wise words, little from wisecracks, and less from wise guys.
Being famous...having power...gaining wealth...all I aim for. Is that so wrong?
The waters are full of mysterious things, can you imagine draning all the seas, lakes and everything like that and looking what was present?
Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils.
Any man smart enough to understand a woman is smart enough to keep quiet about it.
You have to know how to accept rejection and reject acceptance.
Everyone is looking out for themselves, they care about no one else.
I wake up in the morning and i ask myself, is life worth living should i blast myself?
Only a fool fights a battle he knows he cannot win.
The cost of everyday living is high, wish I could say the same for my pay.
There will come a time when you will have to choose between what is right and what is easy.
No matter what side of the argument you are on, you always find people on your side that you wish were on the other.
No matter how old you are, there's always something good to look forward to.
When all your wish are granted, all your dreams would die.
If you can't be funny, be interesting.
Associate yourself with men of good quality if you esteem your own reputation for 'tis better to be alone than in bad company.
Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh.
Those who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, usually do.
The best way to keep one's word is not to give it.
Man was given an imagination to compensate him for what he could be, and a sense of humour to console him for what he is.
I cried because my shoes hurt until I met a man who had no feet.
Im only smiling because I don't know whats going on.
He doesn't wish for peace. He works for it.
Doubt whom you will, but never yourself.
My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right?
A wise man gets more use from his enemies than a fool from his friends.
If we make our goal to live a life of compassion and unconditional love, then the world will indeed become a garden where all kinds of flowers can bloom and grow.
When a man tells you that he got rich through hard work, ask him: 'Whose?'
Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. Fortunately, I love money.
What doesn't kill you really hurts like hell.
What's the use of happiness? It can't buy you money.
A brave man dies once. A coward dies but many times.
Those who talk least hear the most.
A single false move loses the game.
If you think nobody's worried about you or that no one cares whether your dead or alive...try missing a couple of tax payments.
Check out the weak situation, nations war against nations, where did it all begin? Let me say, when will it END?
Those that say it cannot be done should stop interupting those that are doing it.
The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget.
A true friend stabs you in the front.
He who hesitates is a damned fool.
If you don't make mistakes, you're not working on hard enough problems. And that's a big mistake.
When you travel, remember that a foreign country is not designed to make you comfortable. It is designed to make its own people comfortable.
Chew before you swallow.
Have no friends not equal to yourself.
He who speaks without modesty will find it difficult to make his words good.
If you wish to know what a man is, place him in authority.
There is happiness for those who accept their fate, there is glory for those who resist their fate.
Just because someone holds you doesn't mean that it's love...just because someone is kind to you doesn't means that it's love!
If you aren't remembered, then you never existed.
The choices we make in life have unlimited possibilities.
This world is far more complicated, rich and full of mystery than people think.
What's necessary in a fight isn't fear. Nothing can be born from that.
The interaction of men and women isn't very logical.
I was dead until the moment I met you. I was a powerless corpse pretending to be alive. Living without power, without the ability to change my course, was akin to a slow death.
Love Can Kill, but Hate Can Never Save.
History is much like an endless waltz. The three beats of war, peace, and revolution continue forever.
Only beautiful creatures can understand one another.
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
The heart was made to be broken.
Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
Always do what is right. This will surprise some people and astonish the rest.
Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.
Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you.
Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
You don't die from a broken heart.. you only wish you did.
You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.
The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don't love you back.
You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.
Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in little kids heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after.
We enter relationships as a somebody and leave them as a nobody.
Let me live my life as I want, for at its end it is I who must die.
Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy.
A tragic tale of romance, passion, and a murder most foul!
Life is simple, its just not easy.
Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you're alive, it isn't.
Time is free, but it's priceless.
You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future.
We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.
Time is the justice that examines all offenders.
Vulgarities have been intergrated into the way youths speak these days.
The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to use the stairs ... one step at a time.
How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.
A man can never hope to be more than he is if he is not first honest about what he isn’t.
Never let a fool kiss you or a kiss fool you.
If my hands are fully occupied in holding on to something, I can neither give nor receive.
To follow, without halt, one aim: There's the secret of success.
It is possible to fail in many ways...while to succeed is possible only in one way.
Why be a man when you can be a success?
I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.
Live well. It is the greatest revenge.
When a thing has been said and well, have no scruple. Take it and copy it.
The counseller counsels the people, but who counsels the counseller?
Did I ever tell you that I have Schizophrenia?
Rich people can flaunt their richness because they're rich. Poor people should just shut up and stop being jealous.
It is better to make a fool out of yourself than to feel worthless for the rest of your life
If you ask a question, you are a fool for that period of time. But if your never did ask the question, you're a fool for a lifetime.
A critic is someone who knows the way but can't drive the car.
After the game, the king and the pawn go into the same box
Don 't sacrifice your dreams because others lack vision.
Trust everybody ... then cut the cards.
When life seems chaotic, you don't need people giving you easy answers or cheap promises.
However beautiful the strategy, you should occasionally look at the results.
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me.
It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be.
The harder you try, the dumber you look.
No single raindrop believes it is to blame for the flood.
The tallest blade of grass is the first to be cut by the lawnmower.
Just because you're necessary doesn't mean you're important.
The greatest justice of in the world is white hair. It will appear even on the head the noblest.
Time is the fairest judge.
Birth, age, sickness and death are the most just jury.
It would be nice if we could put away and throw out
everything except what really mattered, but
reality is just cruel.
On a long enough timeline. The survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
Giving up is part of life.
Don't choose death in order to protect her. No matter what happens, you must live to protect her.
Don't ask for it; go win it on your own. Do that and you'll succeed.
A gun is good, unlike a sword or a knife, it doesn't leave the feeling of a person dying in your hands.
If miracles only happen once, what are they called the second time?
The same way it's impossible to convey how something feels without them
having felt it for themselves.
Death is a gift given at birth.
If evil did'nt exist, justice would'nt shine.
Listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
I am indifferent to these untrue criticisms; I report to my conscience; and I would not be able to face myself if I knew that there was a wrong that I could have righted but failed to do so.
Both the Bible and Confucius tell us not to treat others in a way that we ourselves would not want to be treated.
Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is ours to win or to lose.
What's the point of living your life for all eternity when you live the rest of your life as a failure?
They say that there are many other fishes in the ocean; but you are the only one for me.
Even if I suffer from injustice and disrespect, some things just aren't worth fighting for.
If everyday was Christmas, nobody would celebrate it.
The cruelest lies are often told in silence.
One's first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love.
When defeat is inevitable, it is wisest to yield.
It's weird...you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more.
If they can’t get close enough to hurt you, they can’t get close enough to love you.
Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in you heart that only love can fill.
Everyone makes a greater effort to hurt other people than to help himself.
A few months ago, some elite claimed "we have free speech but with limitations."
...like my house coffeeshop... they have free food, but you must pay money for the food.
I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you.
The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.
Make the lie big, make it simple, keep saying it, and eventually they will believe it.
People do not believe lies because they have to, but because they want to.
Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.
Emotions are things that can hurt you...and yet you cannot hurt them back.
When the time is right ,i will come for you my beloved ,right now is not the time ,but , i will come back for you one day ,do not fret ... for I love u.
No one is listening until you make a mistake.
It is far more impressive when others discover your good qualities without your help.
If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
HER - For just being there.
Keith - For a free drink
C.Teng - For some metal heart shape wire thingy
Uncle Lee ( cosplay supplier ) - For giving me a HUGE discount on my cosplay suit, a neat poster and the member card.
3rd aunt - For hosting a buffet dinner at some posh restaurant in due of striking 10k SGD in the recent 4D draw.
Mr Nathan - For ur free A4 papers
HER sister - For letting me find the courage to talk to ( and curbing my shyness )
My sister - For getting me a b'day present which I have not gotten from her YET.
My parents - For hosting a small dinner for me somewhere in the town area.
And many others whom I MAY have forgotten. The day's still early, so I may receive more later on. Even the smallest gift WILL be listed ( if I can remember, that is )
--
MY LELOUCH LAMPEROUGE SUIT IS UP. It's WAY better than I had expected. Now all's that left is a scarf AND a helmet. I still lack a mask for my Hei's cosplay though.
--
Transfering some data over via the blog...
My ( YES MINE, EUGENE GOH ) collection of QUOTES over the period of 5 years or so.
Please bear with it.
--
For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic. Normal means lack of imagination, lack of creativity.
Courage is the ladder on which all the other virtues mount.
First Impressions aren't always important, its how you end it the last impression.
the only way to get rid of a bad memory is to replace it with a good one, you can't forget no matter how hard you try, so now live and replace.
If you lose something important to move on and gain something else, it isn't a sacrifice, it's a trade.
Its the simple things that we often seem to miss... its not that we don't give a shit its just that we don't find the time, we over analyze things and leave the simple things behind.
Its like the story of the little wooden boy who wanted to live the life that every child should enjoy. I've heard it once or twice before. The world is yours for you to explore.
When you love someone you got to let them go. So I'm gonna smile cause I wanna make you happy, laugh so you can't see me cry. I'm gonna let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I'm gonna smile.
When I'm holding a sword to protect you, I can't embrace you. When I'm embracing you, I can't protect you.
When each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.
Give a cookie, make a friend.
As a well spent day brings happy sleep, so a life well spent brings happy death.
Your misery is my pleasure, I serve to make you happy. Should I ever fail, my existance on Earth is meaningless.
If you can call your friend a retard, you are a good friend. If you can act like a retard with your friend, you guys are best friends.
There are no such things as genuinely good intentions. The only thing 'good' about them is the selfish benefit the action brings the intender.
When there's good, there's evil. There's no point of being good if there's no evil, and vice versa.
Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.
Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.
If you think life sucks and then you die, in the end it still sucks.
Life is eternal. Love is immortal.
Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die.
Learn from others mistakes,you don't live long enough to make them all yourself
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind.
Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach.
True stability results when presumed order and presumed disorder are balanced. A truly stable system expects the unexpected, is prepared to be disrupted, waits to be transformed.
There is no such thing as a weird human being, It's just that some people require more understanding than others
If all else fails, reformat. It's all about time.
Live as if you were living already for the second time and as if you had acted the first time as wrongly as you are about to act now.
The moment you look in the mirror and like what you see, you've already lost the war.
Life's simple, you make choices and you don't look back.
Showing off is the fool's idea of glory.
Don't let it end like this, tell him I said something.
Do not fear death. Death is always at your side. When you show fear, it will spring at you faster than light. If you do not show fear, it will only gently look over you...
This whole world exist just for cornering you, you have to find your way out.
The whole idea of war is not for you to die for your country, but to make the other bastard die for his!
The power of imagination is the ability to create your own future, and the power to create your own flow of time.
Righteousness is what has developed between faith and revenge.
The one problem is that you can’t have a perfect society without perfect people.
Someone has to fight, otherwise this war will never end.
Answer me. Why is killing human beings considered wrong?
I never think of the future - it comes soon enough.
The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources.
The hater and the hatred are two in one. When one dies, the other will follow suit soon.
All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand.
Love me when I need it least, cause that's when I need it most.
We are never intelligent beings. Halfway in our path, we would have to stop, take a break and carry on.
Sacarsm may be the lowest form of wit, but it may be the best way to convey the message across.
If we couldn't laugh, we would all go insane.
Laughter is a free medicine.
Humour is exellent to make one feel comfortable.
The more things a man is ashamed of, the more respectable he is.
Get all the fools on your side and you can be elected to anything.
Everyone is entitled to be stupid, but some abuse the privilege.
Do you see your bottle half full or half empty?
I am not perfect. I am not worthy, but most of all, I am not ashamed.
It's difficult to tell which one your giving : Lame or funny?
Wars take many lives away. Humans never forget the grief, but they also never stop the fighting. Streams of blood and tears are only an ornament for their destructive ritual
If you let the fly live, the spider is going to die. You can't save both without one suffering.
If possible, die with a smile.
Don’t use other people as an excuse to die.
Be nice to people who you meet on your way up, cause you will need them on your way down.
You can choose : To use friends as puppets or to use friends as your support. Be warned, I shall not be responsible if you lose them.
It's either you backstab him or the other way round. The one who strikes first always gets an advantage. However, who gets the last laugh is always a mystery.
Yes, there is no Fate for us, only those who are swallowed by ignorance and fear and miss a step
fall into the rapid river called Fate.
I just keep practicing to say goodbye to you.
Those who do not know what love is liken it to beauty. Those who claim to know what love is
liken it to ugliness.
Always have a backup plan, you don't know when or what will come.
Do not envy a sinner; you don't know what disaster awaits him.
We can learn much from wise words, little from wisecracks, and less from wise guys.
Being famous...having power...gaining wealth...all I aim for. Is that so wrong?
The waters are full of mysterious things, can you imagine draning all the seas, lakes and everything like that and looking what was present?
Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils.
Any man smart enough to understand a woman is smart enough to keep quiet about it.
You have to know how to accept rejection and reject acceptance.
Everyone is looking out for themselves, they care about no one else.
I wake up in the morning and i ask myself, is life worth living should i blast myself?
Only a fool fights a battle he knows he cannot win.
The cost of everyday living is high, wish I could say the same for my pay.
There will come a time when you will have to choose between what is right and what is easy.
No matter what side of the argument you are on, you always find people on your side that you wish were on the other.
No matter how old you are, there's always something good to look forward to.
When all your wish are granted, all your dreams would die.
If you can't be funny, be interesting.
Associate yourself with men of good quality if you esteem your own reputation for 'tis better to be alone than in bad company.
Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh.
Those who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, usually do.
The best way to keep one's word is not to give it.
Man was given an imagination to compensate him for what he could be, and a sense of humour to console him for what he is.
I cried because my shoes hurt until I met a man who had no feet.
Im only smiling because I don't know whats going on.
He doesn't wish for peace. He works for it.
Doubt whom you will, but never yourself.
My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right?
A wise man gets more use from his enemies than a fool from his friends.
If we make our goal to live a life of compassion and unconditional love, then the world will indeed become a garden where all kinds of flowers can bloom and grow.
When a man tells you that he got rich through hard work, ask him: 'Whose?'
Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. Fortunately, I love money.
What doesn't kill you really hurts like hell.
What's the use of happiness? It can't buy you money.
A brave man dies once. A coward dies but many times.
Those who talk least hear the most.
A single false move loses the game.
If you think nobody's worried about you or that no one cares whether your dead or alive...try missing a couple of tax payments.
Check out the weak situation, nations war against nations, where did it all begin? Let me say, when will it END?
Those that say it cannot be done should stop interupting those that are doing it.
The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget.
A true friend stabs you in the front.
He who hesitates is a damned fool.
If you don't make mistakes, you're not working on hard enough problems. And that's a big mistake.
When you travel, remember that a foreign country is not designed to make you comfortable. It is designed to make its own people comfortable.
Chew before you swallow.
Have no friends not equal to yourself.
He who speaks without modesty will find it difficult to make his words good.
If you wish to know what a man is, place him in authority.
There is happiness for those who accept their fate, there is glory for those who resist their fate.
Just because someone holds you doesn't mean that it's love...just because someone is kind to you doesn't means that it's love!
If you aren't remembered, then you never existed.
The choices we make in life have unlimited possibilities.
This world is far more complicated, rich and full of mystery than people think.
What's necessary in a fight isn't fear. Nothing can be born from that.
The interaction of men and women isn't very logical.
I was dead until the moment I met you. I was a powerless corpse pretending to be alive. Living without power, without the ability to change my course, was akin to a slow death.
Love Can Kill, but Hate Can Never Save.
History is much like an endless waltz. The three beats of war, peace, and revolution continue forever.
Only beautiful creatures can understand one another.
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
The heart was made to be broken.
Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
Always do what is right. This will surprise some people and astonish the rest.
Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.
Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you.
Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
You don't die from a broken heart.. you only wish you did.
You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.
The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don't love you back.
You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.
Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in little kids heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after.
We enter relationships as a somebody and leave them as a nobody.
Let me live my life as I want, for at its end it is I who must die.
Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy.
A tragic tale of romance, passion, and a murder most foul!
Life is simple, its just not easy.
Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you're alive, it isn't.
Time is free, but it's priceless.
You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future.
We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.
Time is the justice that examines all offenders.
Vulgarities have been intergrated into the way youths speak these days.
The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to use the stairs ... one step at a time.
How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.
A man can never hope to be more than he is if he is not first honest about what he isn’t.
Never let a fool kiss you or a kiss fool you.
If my hands are fully occupied in holding on to something, I can neither give nor receive.
To follow, without halt, one aim: There's the secret of success.
It is possible to fail in many ways...while to succeed is possible only in one way.
Why be a man when you can be a success?
I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.
Live well. It is the greatest revenge.
When a thing has been said and well, have no scruple. Take it and copy it.
The counseller counsels the people, but who counsels the counseller?
Did I ever tell you that I have Schizophrenia?
Rich people can flaunt their richness because they're rich. Poor people should just shut up and stop being jealous.
It is better to make a fool out of yourself than to feel worthless for the rest of your life
If you ask a question, you are a fool for that period of time. But if your never did ask the question, you're a fool for a lifetime.
A critic is someone who knows the way but can't drive the car.
After the game, the king and the pawn go into the same box
Don 't sacrifice your dreams because others lack vision.
Trust everybody ... then cut the cards.
When life seems chaotic, you don't need people giving you easy answers or cheap promises.
However beautiful the strategy, you should occasionally look at the results.
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me.
It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be.
The harder you try, the dumber you look.
No single raindrop believes it is to blame for the flood.
The tallest blade of grass is the first to be cut by the lawnmower.
Just because you're necessary doesn't mean you're important.
The greatest justice of in the world is white hair. It will appear even on the head the noblest.
Time is the fairest judge.
Birth, age, sickness and death are the most just jury.
It would be nice if we could put away and throw out
everything except what really mattered, but
reality is just cruel.
On a long enough timeline. The survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
Giving up is part of life.
Don't choose death in order to protect her. No matter what happens, you must live to protect her.
Don't ask for it; go win it on your own. Do that and you'll succeed.
A gun is good, unlike a sword or a knife, it doesn't leave the feeling of a person dying in your hands.
If miracles only happen once, what are they called the second time?
The same way it's impossible to convey how something feels without them
having felt it for themselves.
Death is a gift given at birth.
If evil did'nt exist, justice would'nt shine.
Listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
I am indifferent to these untrue criticisms; I report to my conscience; and I would not be able to face myself if I knew that there was a wrong that I could have righted but failed to do so.
Both the Bible and Confucius tell us not to treat others in a way that we ourselves would not want to be treated.
Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is ours to win or to lose.
What's the point of living your life for all eternity when you live the rest of your life as a failure?
They say that there are many other fishes in the ocean; but you are the only one for me.
Even if I suffer from injustice and disrespect, some things just aren't worth fighting for.
If everyday was Christmas, nobody would celebrate it.
The cruelest lies are often told in silence.
One's first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love.
When defeat is inevitable, it is wisest to yield.
It's weird...you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more.
If they can’t get close enough to hurt you, they can’t get close enough to love you.
Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in you heart that only love can fill.
Everyone makes a greater effort to hurt other people than to help himself.
A few months ago, some elite claimed "we have free speech but with limitations."
...like my house coffeeshop... they have free food, but you must pay money for the food.
I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you.
The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.
Make the lie big, make it simple, keep saying it, and eventually they will believe it.
People do not believe lies because they have to, but because they want to.
Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.
Emotions are things that can hurt you...and yet you cannot hurt them back.
When the time is right ,i will come for you my beloved ,right now is not the time ,but , i will come back for you one day ,do not fret ... for I love u.
No one is listening until you make a mistake.
It is far more impressive when others discover your good qualities without your help.
If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Dedicated to myself~!
Lyrics : Mirai dake shinjiteru
Dareka ga warattemo kamawanai
Hashitteru jounetsu ga
Anata wo kiramekaseru
Mabushisugi, demo mitsumeteitai
Dokka "bigaku" kanjiteru
I'm really really stuck on you
Dare nimo nitenai yume no senaka wo
Oikakete oikaketeku
Yoake wo yobisamasu you na
Moeru kimochi
Atosaki nante ima wa shiranai
Taikutsu na jikan yorimo
Doramatikku te ni ireru made
Believe in wonderland!
Yamazumi no mondai wo
Karume no nori de kawashichau
Kono michi wa modorenai
Anata no puraido da ne
Toraburu tsuzuki yowaki na yoru wa
Gyutto daiteageru yo
I wanna wanna be with you
Dare nimo mienai yume no katachi wo
Tsukamaete tsukamaeteku
Watashi wa tsuiteyuku kara
Atsui kimochi
Tsujitsuma awase betsu ni iranai
Arifureta nichijou yorimo
Paradaisu mezashite hashire
Believe in wonderland!
Dare nimo nitenai yume no senaka wo
Oikakete oikaketeku
Yoake wo yobisamasu you na
Moeru kimochi
Atosaki nante ima wa shiranai
Taikutsu na jikan yorimo
Doramatikku te ni ireru made
Believe in wonderland!
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Happy early birthday to ME.
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On the other hand, I'm currently stuck at a decision to take my 'O' levels Japanese this year. I'm dead serious about that and I'm going to score high in that subject.
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Oh, and...I'm going to take ONE STEP AT A TIME ( The horoscope section of the newspaper had better be true ! ).
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Based on a TRUE story.
It was a hazy morning. I woke up with a plan I devised the day before - to amend my mistakes and start over again.
I tried to make the best out of Friday's incident - like a side distraction while my main plan strikes and hopefully, kindles a spark. I had it all planned out - like phrases in perfect order.
That incident that happened last Friday was a blessing in disguised. I thought I had screwed up big time. I was negative until I saw the positive sides of the incident. That Friday incident lingered in my mind up till today. My mind strays back to that incident from time to time. However, every time I did, I had forgotten a character who played a minor role before had came back to haunt me.
Something, or in this case, someone, had ruined my plan. He was the rival that I had forgotten in the equation, the obstacle in my path - and he was not alone.
It was the end of lessons for that day for many. Remedial classes usually takes place after that. She, being in a more advanced class, was not spared from attending remedial.
With almost no valid information, I begun my god-knows-how-long wait. I went to have my lunch first and coincidentally met her sister in the canteen. Although I did not had a good look at her before, I could roughly recalls what she looks like. I asked my friend, the one who followed me on Friday, and confirmed it was her, just to clear my doubts.
While waiting, I whipped out my cellphone and did my homework to kill time. I waited and waited and waited. I walked around the school after I finished my homework in the canteen. For every friend that I met while walking, they all asked me a common question : " What are you doing here? "
It was 4pm and I was loitering throughout the compound. It was no wonder the inquiries. I took my bag and left the school once I saw another friend from her class. He was another of my CCA junior. Then, I spilled the beans to him and gave it away when I asked about HER. We exchanged numbers and I made another valuable friend who can assist me greatly.
As I turned back from the bus stop. I saw her exiting the school. The distance was wide and thankfully I had a pair of eyes that saved me from despise.
I saw her being surrounded by boys of her age group from a different class. I did not want to believe my eyes, and so I hid behind a building's pillar and waited.
It seemed forever. My heart was beating faster, hoping that it was not her. I had to maintain a stoical front. However, life is unfair. It was her that passed my vision. My world almost collapsed, if I had not been emotionally prepared, I would have been regretting the time I met her. Words of wisdom and consolation quotes flooded my mind.
' Life is not about surviving the storm but dancing in the rain. "
Demotivated and demoralized, I went home in a downtrodden state. Heaven seems to be making a fool of me when I saw my friend with his girlfriend walking home together. However, I am not one who will run away from this fight. I will continue my plans until she finds her happiness, no matter who.
That incident had taught me how to control my emotions somewhat. I know I must not dwell into the incident but sometimes, I can't help letting it out. My heart sank into an abyss of misery, and my face continues to look dour and listless.
However, I constantly remind myself it's not the end - but the start. The start of more pleasant things and less unpleasant things.
I tried to make the best out of Friday's incident - like a side distraction while my main plan strikes and hopefully, kindles a spark. I had it all planned out - like phrases in perfect order.
That incident that happened last Friday was a blessing in disguised. I thought I had screwed up big time. I was negative until I saw the positive sides of the incident. That Friday incident lingered in my mind up till today. My mind strays back to that incident from time to time. However, every time I did, I had forgotten a character who played a minor role before had came back to haunt me.
Something, or in this case, someone, had ruined my plan. He was the rival that I had forgotten in the equation, the obstacle in my path - and he was not alone.
It was the end of lessons for that day for many. Remedial classes usually takes place after that. She, being in a more advanced class, was not spared from attending remedial.
With almost no valid information, I begun my god-knows-how-long wait. I went to have my lunch first and coincidentally met her sister in the canteen. Although I did not had a good look at her before, I could roughly recalls what she looks like. I asked my friend, the one who followed me on Friday, and confirmed it was her, just to clear my doubts.
While waiting, I whipped out my cellphone and did my homework to kill time. I waited and waited and waited. I walked around the school after I finished my homework in the canteen. For every friend that I met while walking, they all asked me a common question : " What are you doing here? "
It was 4pm and I was loitering throughout the compound. It was no wonder the inquiries. I took my bag and left the school once I saw another friend from her class. He was another of my CCA junior. Then, I spilled the beans to him and gave it away when I asked about HER. We exchanged numbers and I made another valuable friend who can assist me greatly.
As I turned back from the bus stop. I saw her exiting the school. The distance was wide and thankfully I had a pair of eyes that saved me from despise.
I saw her being surrounded by boys of her age group from a different class. I did not want to believe my eyes, and so I hid behind a building's pillar and waited.
It seemed forever. My heart was beating faster, hoping that it was not her. I had to maintain a stoical front. However, life is unfair. It was her that passed my vision. My world almost collapsed, if I had not been emotionally prepared, I would have been regretting the time I met her. Words of wisdom and consolation quotes flooded my mind.
' Life is not about surviving the storm but dancing in the rain. "
Demotivated and demoralized, I went home in a downtrodden state. Heaven seems to be making a fool of me when I saw my friend with his girlfriend walking home together. However, I am not one who will run away from this fight. I will continue my plans until she finds her happiness, no matter who.
That incident had taught me how to control my emotions somewhat. I know I must not dwell into the incident but sometimes, I can't help letting it out. My heart sank into an abyss of misery, and my face continues to look dour and listless.
However, I constantly remind myself it's not the end - but the start. The start of more pleasant things and less unpleasant things.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Console
Thank you ALL for your help by reassuring me that nothing would go wrong and that all will end well.
Thanks to...
Dan - for being there.
Han, Seng and Sher - for being my advisers.
Vin - for being a good listener.
AJ - for making my presence known.
The GUILD - for listening to my problems (and story).
last but not least
Her - who accepted the gifts no matter how poorly I thought it was done. Thank you very much. I now know that what does'nt kill me really hurts like hell but it is undeniable that it made me stronger emotionally.
itwasnotamistakemeetingyouafterall.
Ok, time to pick myself up and get back on the track.
Signing off - Gene.
Thanks to...
Dan - for being there.
Han, Seng and Sher - for being my advisers.
Vin - for being a good listener.
AJ - for making my presence known.
The GUILD - for listening to my problems (and story).
last but not least
Her - who accepted the gifts no matter how poorly I thought it was done. Thank you very much. I now know that what does'nt kill me really hurts like hell but it is undeniable that it made me stronger emotionally.
itwasnotamistakemeetingyouafterall.
Ok, time to pick myself up and get back on the track.
Signing off - Gene.
Based on a TRUE story.
The lesson was over. I ran out of the classroom, in hopes of giving HER an early Valentine's day gift. I fear that she may reject it, and so I hesitated...
I brushed my pessimistic thoughts aside and decided to give myself the 'Green-light'. As I finally stepped out of the classroom, I turned my attention towards her class.
That was when I saw Him. I knew, from my instincts and sources, he was waiting for Her too. Out of due respect, I decided to step back and spectate what would be his next move.
Like other humans, I have feelings. I experienced a kaleidoscope of mixed emotions - Excitement, jealousy, confusion and fear..although I did not let jealousy get the best of me. She would be coming out with her friends anytime soon, and thus I decided to wait for her outside the school.
I stood outside the gates, I had to get the headstart. I saw them heading in my direction. I then ran frantically ahead. I thought the headstart would be useful but to my demise, the darned traffic light stopped me. Her speed soon caught up with me, and that was not good.
As soon as the traffic light changed, I took the lead. Luckily for me, I knew where she stayed. I happened to see her walking up the stairs before, and concluded that she is living there. I got there way faster, by breaking traffic rules and running like a mad dog. Then, she came. Thanks to my shy and sensitive nature, I missed the first chance.
I had this all planned out, apart from some unexpected flaws. I knew what I did was wrong. All wrong. The moment I started getting myself involved in her world - it's wrong.
I stood there like a fool. All hope was lost; or so I thought. I had no choice - I adopted plan B. I was NOT letting my efforts go to waste. At least, hopefully, I would make an effort to get myself noticed by her.
Then, I saw Him. He was following her too, except that he did not know where she lives. Finally, he quickly recedes out of my vision...
My friend had caught up with me. He was following her all along, making sure she got home to put my plan in place. I told him the failure of plan A...and I felt like a failure. My only hope was plan B - to get her out. I assured myself that it would work. Luckily for me, I have her friend's number.
I strategically took her number from the club's record book. I knew that, the extra friend would be of help somewhat, and she did not let me down. Thankfully, the friend followed along my plan. I braced myself for an event that may change my life; forever.
I sat on the ledge, waiting for her. I told myself I must seize this chance. Then, I heard footsteps. My heart was beating faster. I stood up and saw...
a young boy dressed in a red football jersey. I felt relieved, yet devastated at the same time. Relieved that I had more time to prepare, and devastated at the thought that she would not come.
I went back to sit on the ledge. I waited for a minute. Thankfully, she came down, with her sister tagging along. I could vividly remember that she was still in her school uniform.
We, both, being extremely shy, stood there for a second. She has her sister and I got my friend, which supported us emotionally and mentally which I really need. Not wanting my efforts to go to waste and not wanting her to waste her time, I quickly made my move. I handed her the poorly prepared gift. I felt unworthy, yet continued on. She was hesitating and I could still remember the words that she said...
"..Er...Er..." were the words which came out from her mouth. The words were simple, yet clear. No doubt - she was confused. She might be thinking that I'm some crazy idiot who has nothing better to do. I was in a state of lost. I then persuaded her to take the gifts.
I did not know what made her accept the gifts, but I would bet that it was out of sympathy or compassion. Regardless, as she took the gifts, I greeted her with a ' Happy Valentine's Day ', although it was still early. It was impossible for me to do so in the exact day, as it falls on a Saturday. I did not want her to waste her Saturday time on me. She might have another, yet I stood undaunted.
I took my bag and left, being too shy and ashamed to turn back. I could'nt turn back even if I tried, and when I finally controlled my emotions, I looked back and she was gone.
I did have regretted not donning my cosplay suit, maybe it was because I had no time to prepare myself. Maybe my friend was right - I'll make myself look even weirder if I had don the suit.
As for Him, I think he will have to put off his plans until next Monday.
No matter how much I tried to forget what happened, I could not. I could only regret and hope that I made myself clear. I admit, it was not a good first impression. I told my friends about this incident and they consoled me. I did not know what to do, yet until now, I tell myself that such things are controlled by fate.
What will be, will be.
I brushed my pessimistic thoughts aside and decided to give myself the 'Green-light'. As I finally stepped out of the classroom, I turned my attention towards her class.
That was when I saw Him. I knew, from my instincts and sources, he was waiting for Her too. Out of due respect, I decided to step back and spectate what would be his next move.
Like other humans, I have feelings. I experienced a kaleidoscope of mixed emotions - Excitement, jealousy, confusion and fear..although I did not let jealousy get the best of me. She would be coming out with her friends anytime soon, and thus I decided to wait for her outside the school.
I stood outside the gates, I had to get the headstart. I saw them heading in my direction. I then ran frantically ahead. I thought the headstart would be useful but to my demise, the darned traffic light stopped me. Her speed soon caught up with me, and that was not good.
As soon as the traffic light changed, I took the lead. Luckily for me, I knew where she stayed. I happened to see her walking up the stairs before, and concluded that she is living there. I got there way faster, by breaking traffic rules and running like a mad dog. Then, she came. Thanks to my shy and sensitive nature, I missed the first chance.
I had this all planned out, apart from some unexpected flaws. I knew what I did was wrong. All wrong. The moment I started getting myself involved in her world - it's wrong.
I stood there like a fool. All hope was lost; or so I thought. I had no choice - I adopted plan B. I was NOT letting my efforts go to waste. At least, hopefully, I would make an effort to get myself noticed by her.
Then, I saw Him. He was following her too, except that he did not know where she lives. Finally, he quickly recedes out of my vision...
My friend had caught up with me. He was following her all along, making sure she got home to put my plan in place. I told him the failure of plan A...and I felt like a failure. My only hope was plan B - to get her out. I assured myself that it would work. Luckily for me, I have her friend's number.
I strategically took her number from the club's record book. I knew that, the extra friend would be of help somewhat, and she did not let me down. Thankfully, the friend followed along my plan. I braced myself for an event that may change my life; forever.
I sat on the ledge, waiting for her. I told myself I must seize this chance. Then, I heard footsteps. My heart was beating faster. I stood up and saw...
a young boy dressed in a red football jersey. I felt relieved, yet devastated at the same time. Relieved that I had more time to prepare, and devastated at the thought that she would not come.
I went back to sit on the ledge. I waited for a minute. Thankfully, she came down, with her sister tagging along. I could vividly remember that she was still in her school uniform.
We, both, being extremely shy, stood there for a second. She has her sister and I got my friend, which supported us emotionally and mentally which I really need. Not wanting my efforts to go to waste and not wanting her to waste her time, I quickly made my move. I handed her the poorly prepared gift. I felt unworthy, yet continued on. She was hesitating and I could still remember the words that she said...
"..Er...Er..." were the words which came out from her mouth. The words were simple, yet clear. No doubt - she was confused. She might be thinking that I'm some crazy idiot who has nothing better to do. I was in a state of lost. I then persuaded her to take the gifts.
I did not know what made her accept the gifts, but I would bet that it was out of sympathy or compassion. Regardless, as she took the gifts, I greeted her with a ' Happy Valentine's Day ', although it was still early. It was impossible for me to do so in the exact day, as it falls on a Saturday. I did not want her to waste her Saturday time on me. She might have another, yet I stood undaunted.
I took my bag and left, being too shy and ashamed to turn back. I could'nt turn back even if I tried, and when I finally controlled my emotions, I looked back and she was gone.
I did have regretted not donning my cosplay suit, maybe it was because I had no time to prepare myself. Maybe my friend was right - I'll make myself look even weirder if I had don the suit.
As for Him, I think he will have to put off his plans until next Monday.
No matter how much I tried to forget what happened, I could not. I could only regret and hope that I made myself clear. I admit, it was not a good first impression. I told my friends about this incident and they consoled me. I did not know what to do, yet until now, I tell myself that such things are controlled by fate.
What will be, will be.
It's 6.02 AM.
Its 6.02 AM and I can't sleep. I've been awake since 4AM. I don't know why but every time I close my eyes, I think of THAT incident...afraid of being judged negatively.
I don't know what to do next. I don't know...
I'll post a story of THAT incident maybe later.
I don't know what to do next. I don't know...
I'll post a story of THAT incident maybe later.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
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