It was just 3 days before the June holidays. Everybody was restless as the June holidays approaches. Of course, I was no exception. Eagerly waiting for the June holidays to arrive so that I could escape from this class from hell. Being in secondary one, there was no need to fret about remedial lessons during the holidays or any call backs to school. It was just 20 to 25 consecutive days of fun and enjoyment, a getaway from the school matters and homework.
With only days left before the holidays and with minimal homework (since our semester exams were finished), I was the center of attraction. A toy for the class - me. I was fine with it though, probably because I'm already seasoned. By now, after 3 months of torture, I had learn what to do and what not to do. Sometimes, I would pretend to play along with the gang - giving them an eager face when I am forced to do push-ups. Of course, being young, they gave some much needed sympathy once in a while. While any bully victim would make good use of any chance given to rest, I was different. I made them felt like they were training me - doing extra push and such. Sometimes, I would even offer to buy food or drinks for my tormentors. After all, I had some prerequisites to meet before I pull off my plan.
--
The last day before the school holidays. It was recess time and everybody was in the canteen. I secretly stayed behind to leave a note on one of the "gang" member's table - Fin. My plan was about to be carried out and for the first time, I shall have revenge. Sweet revenge.
Chapter 11 end.
==
Apologies for the long hiatus but chapter's finally up.
Well, some of you readers ( esp those who are in the same class as me before ) may remember this ( and VERY esp if you are in that gang ). Well, let's just say that without you guys, I may not be who I am today.
Of course, the ride is going to get more emotional and some of you may MSN me things like " HEY ITS OVER ALREADY OMFG I HATE YOU NOW " kinds of thing.
All I can say is, whatever I post in this blog-story, I am prepared to face the consequences you guys are going to give. I'm letting out steam on what happened 5 years back here, so try to imagine how long I had to hold my grudge and test my own patience - a patience of 5 years.
Anyway, it's all water under the bridge now. I'm willing to let bygones be bygones - are you?
--
Still, I won't fabricate the story much.
Just think of it this way - if not for you guys, this story would have never happened.
I would be one of the faceless multitudes who lived and died on this planet without living a trace of my existence. ( I quote that from some Game theory book, credits to that )
Tata~
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Working life~
It's...okay.
Currently balancing Work + WoW + Facebook.
Will update story on Sunday, when my work ends at 2PM.
Till then!
Currently balancing Work + WoW + Facebook.
Will update story on Sunday, when my work ends at 2PM.
Till then!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Ignore this, just for rememberance.
Hi there,
I hope that my reply isn't too late, that you still have the time to decide. I am a NTU Bioengineering graduate. I am blessed that I had chances to work in Bioengineering labs in Singapore and overseas (France, Australia, etc) so I have some idea of the working world of Bioengineering. =)
Bioengineering is meant to be a bridge betweeen medicine and engineering. A lot of medical problems require engineering solutions. In the past, doctors have the problems, but they don't know engineering to solve the problems. Engineering who design ECG, X-ray machine, etc, do not have medical backgrounds so they don't know what is required for those medical equipment. So there we train Bioengineers, who understand both Biology and Engineering, to bridge the gap between the two.
Hence, the workload is rather heavy. Bioengineering is one of the heaviest course in NTU, as we have to know everything, from electrical engineering, mechanical, biochemistry, molecular biology, etc. And since time is limited, courses tend to jump to advanced materials while skipping the introductory part, so in a lot of courses you have to spend a lot of time catching up the basics yourself.
The downside is, since we learn everything, we only know a little bit of everything as have no solid knowledge of any branch of engineering. So is it good? It depends... If you want to study something else after bioengineering, then BioEngineering is a good choice. For example, if you do PhD in a specialized area after graduation, Bioengineering gives you the big picture of the research. I myself am doing Medicine now; Bioengineering gives me the engineering side of Medicine, hence helpful for me being a more well-rounded doctor. If you intend to work immediately after obtaining a B.Eng in Bioengineering, it's not a good choice. Bioengineering companies would rather hire electrical engineers or mechanical engineers with solid knowledge in mechanics or electronics then teach them biology, than hiring Bioengineers who have little knowledge of everything. Furthermore, working in Bioengineering research requires profound knowledge in the area, requiring at least post-docs or PhDs, so yes, fresh undergrads are usually only doing low-level work as assistants in local labs. In other words, if you take Bioengineering major, you have to study till at least post-doctoral level to continue in Bioengineering research area. This applies not only to Singapore, but also overseas companies.
Another hard fact is that Bioengineering industry hasn't matured in Singapore. We still import a lot of foreign talents to Bioengineering companies here. Based on seniors' experience, the majority of class of 2007-09 graduants go to other fields: bank, insurance, teaching, etc. The rest do PhDs or be research assistants.
I am not discouraging you from taking Bioengineering. I myself enjoyed it very much, and it's a good complement to the Medical degree I am studying now. In short, if Bioengineering is your end means, it's not recommended. If you intend to study PhD or something else after Bioengineering, it's a good complement, worth taking it.
All the best, and best wishes in your decission making! =)
Regards,
Chang
I hope that my reply isn't too late, that you still have the time to decide. I am a NTU Bioengineering graduate. I am blessed that I had chances to work in Bioengineering labs in Singapore and overseas (France, Australia, etc) so I have some idea of the working world of Bioengineering. =)
Bioengineering is meant to be a bridge betweeen medicine and engineering. A lot of medical problems require engineering solutions. In the past, doctors have the problems, but they don't know engineering to solve the problems. Engineering who design ECG, X-ray machine, etc, do not have medical backgrounds so they don't know what is required for those medical equipment. So there we train Bioengineers, who understand both Biology and Engineering, to bridge the gap between the two.
Hence, the workload is rather heavy. Bioengineering is one of the heaviest course in NTU, as we have to know everything, from electrical engineering, mechanical, biochemistry, molecular biology, etc. And since time is limited, courses tend to jump to advanced materials while skipping the introductory part, so in a lot of courses you have to spend a lot of time catching up the basics yourself.
The downside is, since we learn everything, we only know a little bit of everything as have no solid knowledge of any branch of engineering. So is it good? It depends... If you want to study something else after bioengineering, then BioEngineering is a good choice. For example, if you do PhD in a specialized area after graduation, Bioengineering gives you the big picture of the research. I myself am doing Medicine now; Bioengineering gives me the engineering side of Medicine, hence helpful for me being a more well-rounded doctor. If you intend to work immediately after obtaining a B.Eng in Bioengineering, it's not a good choice. Bioengineering companies would rather hire electrical engineers or mechanical engineers with solid knowledge in mechanics or electronics then teach them biology, than hiring Bioengineers who have little knowledge of everything. Furthermore, working in Bioengineering research requires profound knowledge in the area, requiring at least post-docs or PhDs, so yes, fresh undergrads are usually only doing low-level work as assistants in local labs. In other words, if you take Bioengineering major, you have to study till at least post-doctoral level to continue in Bioengineering research area. This applies not only to Singapore, but also overseas companies.
Another hard fact is that Bioengineering industry hasn't matured in Singapore. We still import a lot of foreign talents to Bioengineering companies here. Based on seniors' experience, the majority of class of 2007-09 graduants go to other fields: bank, insurance, teaching, etc. The rest do PhDs or be research assistants.
I am not discouraging you from taking Bioengineering. I myself enjoyed it very much, and it's a good complement to the Medical degree I am studying now. In short, if Bioengineering is your end means, it's not recommended. If you intend to study PhD or something else after Bioengineering, it's a good complement, worth taking it.
All the best, and best wishes in your decission making! =)
Regards,
Chang
Apology~
Sorry for the hiatus in the updates :x
Right, I have recently found a job and currently busy with my Polytechnic admissions.
Thus, I will be updating the story at a slower rate ( 3 days 1 chapter maybe? )
BUT on the bright side, this is only temporary.
It'll go back to 1 day 1 chapter AFTER my job, which ends next Sunday.
Till then~
Right, I have recently found a job and currently busy with my Polytechnic admissions.
Thus, I will be updating the story at a slower rate ( 3 days 1 chapter maybe? )
BUT on the bright side, this is only temporary.
It'll go back to 1 day 1 chapter AFTER my job, which ends next Sunday.
Till then~
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Chapter 10 : Plan
It was 2 weeks before the June holidays. The days were not getting better; being thrown into the pit of humiliation, pain and suffering during the first quarter of my school life wasn't the type of start anybody would want.
It was also a week after I met Messier, an alter ego of mine. Messier would usually instruct me where to go to avoid trouble, where to sit in the canteen to stay clear of THEM and how to minimize our chance of getting picked on.
The gang was unusually " quiet " in the month of May. Perhaps they had too much fun torturing me in the month of February, March and April that they decided to let me go in May...or perhaps they finally matured and understood the pains I had while being the bully victim and start gave me some much needed sympathy although the chance of the latter happening was microscopically low, even safe to say, impossible. The fact that we were in the week of our mid-year examinations may have contributed a huge part.
Regardless, I still loiter the top most floor of the school during recesses and breaks. I was fortunate enough not to get caught. Most of the time I would stay back in school just to do homework at the top most floor of the school, instead of going home and still have to bear the nagging of my parents coupled with a very irritating sister.
Fast forward, to approximately 10 days before the June holidays, the gang strikes again. You can pretty much imagine the scenario by now : Me doing homework, them coming to disturb me, them dragging me to the corner of the room, them stuffing waste paper into my bag, them throwing me into the metal cupboard at the back of the class, them locking me inside the metal cupboard and me silently crying for help.
I knew, sooner or later, it would happen again anyway. Word of this has spread throughout the entire cohort that every student in my cohort shuns me. Teachers would try to keep their hands out of it and would pretend that nothing happened. After all, the reputation of the school would be tarnished if this were to be leaked out. People will get the impression of Aspire Secondary School being a " bad " school, one for the brutes. Of course, that may be the reason on why even the teachers turned their backs on me.
Nevertheless, I persevered.
" Soon ", Messier told me, " we will have our revenge. "
==
Chapter 10 end.
---------------
I hope you enjoy this chapter! It's more of a summery of what happened so far, plus an added surprise plan for the next chapter.
It also explains why I don't bother to seek the teacher's help.
Also, I have already ROUGHLY decided on how many chapters I will write/type.
It's a secret ^_^
It was also a week after I met Messier, an alter ego of mine. Messier would usually instruct me where to go to avoid trouble, where to sit in the canteen to stay clear of THEM and how to minimize our chance of getting picked on.
The gang was unusually " quiet " in the month of May. Perhaps they had too much fun torturing me in the month of February, March and April that they decided to let me go in May...or perhaps they finally matured and understood the pains I had while being the bully victim and start gave me some much needed sympathy although the chance of the latter happening was microscopically low, even safe to say, impossible. The fact that we were in the week of our mid-year examinations may have contributed a huge part.
Regardless, I still loiter the top most floor of the school during recesses and breaks. I was fortunate enough not to get caught. Most of the time I would stay back in school just to do homework at the top most floor of the school, instead of going home and still have to bear the nagging of my parents coupled with a very irritating sister.
Fast forward, to approximately 10 days before the June holidays, the gang strikes again. You can pretty much imagine the scenario by now : Me doing homework, them coming to disturb me, them dragging me to the corner of the room, them stuffing waste paper into my bag, them throwing me into the metal cupboard at the back of the class, them locking me inside the metal cupboard and me silently crying for help.
I knew, sooner or later, it would happen again anyway. Word of this has spread throughout the entire cohort that every student in my cohort shuns me. Teachers would try to keep their hands out of it and would pretend that nothing happened. After all, the reputation of the school would be tarnished if this were to be leaked out. People will get the impression of Aspire Secondary School being a " bad " school, one for the brutes. Of course, that may be the reason on why even the teachers turned their backs on me.
Nevertheless, I persevered.
" Soon ", Messier told me, " we will have our revenge. "
==
Chapter 10 end.
---------------
I hope you enjoy this chapter! It's more of a summery of what happened so far, plus an added surprise plan for the next chapter.
It also explains why I don't bother to seek the teacher's help.
Also, I have already ROUGHLY decided on how many chapters I will write/type.
It's a secret ^_^
Monday, February 22, 2010
Messier Chapter 1 : Birth // Chapter 9 : Birth ( Of Messier )
It was dark. It had been stormy ever since the start of the year. Everything was a disaster.
I turned and saw my broken ego. They SHATTERED ego.
Pride was nowhere to be found. They SHAMED our pride.
"Optimistic" and "Positive" were out of my dictionary. They STOLE my personality.
My world was filled with pollution, negatives and pessimistic views.
It was all thanks to THEM.
I could not just stand aside and do nothing. I had to help, for if he dies, I would follow.
--
Light...
I saw light.
I remembered...finally seeing the light.
I walked closer to the light. It was warm.
The portal was giving out the light.
I stepped into the portal.
--
What I saw next was the one of the most terrifying things I saw in my entire life. I was on the verge of suicide.
" Stop ! " I tried to tell him. It was to no avail.
" STOP RIGHT NOW ! " I repeated, much clearly.
He jerked back, then looked at me.
" Why do you contemplate suicide ? " I asked.
He did not speak. There was only hopelessness in his eyes.
" Why are you receiving punishment for doing the right things? " I asked.
Again, he kept silent.
" Come down, child. I have come to aid you in your plight. " I offered.
" I have been all along inside your mind. I have been observing how you suffered. Fear not, for I shall help you turn the tides. ", I continued.
He remained silent but at least he was paying attention.
" You are the only son of your parents. Should you die, so does your family crumbles. You are blessed with a huge family supporting you. Don't you want to prove to them that you can make it? Don't you want to see their faces? I know I do, for I am part of you. " I counseled him.
" Come now. Follow my plans accordingly and you shall see them suffer. They will pay for making you suffer. In this world, only the strong survives. I am here to transform you from a bully victim to a success. Everybody has left you. You have nobody to trust. I am your Trump Card. Rest first and we shall meet again. "
I left after that, only to come out when he calls.
==
Messier Chapter 1 END.
------
Alright, so I introduced a new character, Messier.
Messier was born from the stress that I had back then. He has been a great help to me since. You can call him an " Alter ego " (or split personality or imaginary friend, whatever suits you. )
I probably should give a sneak peek about him since I am unable to fulfill my promise of updating 3 chapters today and only giving 2. I apologize deeply for that.
==
Messier is REAL and he lives inside my mind. I know this is VERY weird and freaky but this is a fact. This means he does not exist solely in my stories.
^ I'm expecting lots of taunts from you guys after typing that. Some may even laugh.
Go ahead and mock me but if not for him, I may not be here.
--
SNEAK PEEK :
Messier isn't really what he seems. He also has another side to him. I call him " Dark Messier ".
You shall see more of Dark Messier further down in my story.
Till then, tata.
I turned and saw my broken ego. They SHATTERED ego.
Pride was nowhere to be found. They SHAMED our pride.
"Optimistic" and "Positive" were out of my dictionary. They STOLE my personality.
My world was filled with pollution, negatives and pessimistic views.
It was all thanks to THEM.
I could not just stand aside and do nothing. I had to help, for if he dies, I would follow.
--
Light...
I saw light.
I remembered...finally seeing the light.
I walked closer to the light. It was warm.
The portal was giving out the light.
I stepped into the portal.
--
What I saw next was the one of the most terrifying things I saw in my entire life. I was on the verge of suicide.
" Stop ! " I tried to tell him. It was to no avail.
" STOP RIGHT NOW ! " I repeated, much clearly.
He jerked back, then looked at me.
" Why do you contemplate suicide ? " I asked.
He did not speak. There was only hopelessness in his eyes.
" Why are you receiving punishment for doing the right things? " I asked.
Again, he kept silent.
" Come down, child. I have come to aid you in your plight. " I offered.
" I have been all along inside your mind. I have been observing how you suffered. Fear not, for I shall help you turn the tides. ", I continued.
He remained silent but at least he was paying attention.
" You are the only son of your parents. Should you die, so does your family crumbles. You are blessed with a huge family supporting you. Don't you want to prove to them that you can make it? Don't you want to see their faces? I know I do, for I am part of you. " I counseled him.
" Come now. Follow my plans accordingly and you shall see them suffer. They will pay for making you suffer. In this world, only the strong survives. I am here to transform you from a bully victim to a success. Everybody has left you. You have nobody to trust. I am your Trump Card. Rest first and we shall meet again. "
I left after that, only to come out when he calls.
==
Messier Chapter 1 END.
------
Alright, so I introduced a new character, Messier.
Messier was born from the stress that I had back then. He has been a great help to me since. You can call him an " Alter ego " (or split personality or imaginary friend, whatever suits you. )
I probably should give a sneak peek about him since I am unable to fulfill my promise of updating 3 chapters today and only giving 2. I apologize deeply for that.
==
Messier is REAL and he lives inside my mind. I know this is VERY weird and freaky but this is a fact. This means he does not exist solely in my stories.
^ I'm expecting lots of taunts from you guys after typing that. Some may even laugh.
Go ahead and mock me but if not for him, I may not be here.
--
SNEAK PEEK :
Messier isn't really what he seems. He also has another side to him. I call him " Dark Messier ".
You shall see more of Dark Messier further down in my story.
Till then, tata.
Chapter 8 : Messier
I looked down...
It was a long distance down...
I hesitated...
In the end, I gave up.
~
Why is the world so cruel?
Why must my life be so sad?
Why must I be the one who suffers?
~
I was standing on the edge of my window.
Should I fall, I would surely die.
I stared at the cold asphalt ground, 11 stories below my feet.
I hesitated, then jumped back.
~
" Why do you contemplate suicide ? "
" Why are you receiving punishment for doing the right things? "
" Come down, child. I have come to aid you in your plight. "
~
I took a step back from the window.
~
" I have been all along inside your mind. I have been observing how you suffered. Fear not, for I shall help you turn the tides. "
~
I closed my eyes and fell into a trance.
When I awoke, it was dinnertime.
==
Chapter 8 END.
--
Alright now, Chapter 8 is a VERY short chapter BUT it is more like a...prologue to chapter 9.
It was a long distance down...
I hesitated...
In the end, I gave up.
~
Why is the world so cruel?
Why must my life be so sad?
Why must I be the one who suffers?
~
I was standing on the edge of my window.
Should I fall, I would surely die.
I stared at the cold asphalt ground, 11 stories below my feet.
I hesitated, then jumped back.
~
" Why do you contemplate suicide ? "
" Why are you receiving punishment for doing the right things? "
" Come down, child. I have come to aid you in your plight. "
~
I took a step back from the window.
~
" I have been all along inside your mind. I have been observing how you suffered. Fear not, for I shall help you turn the tides. "
~
I closed my eyes and fell into a trance.
When I awoke, it was dinnertime.
==
Chapter 8 END.
--
Alright now, Chapter 8 is a VERY short chapter BUT it is more like a...prologue to chapter 9.
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